cuz I want to post your link on my blog roll and I want to put on my next post the link of one of your posts 
Tears run down my face
I can't replace
And now that I'm stronger I've figured out
-- YoUr GuArDiAn AnGel (ReD jUmPsUiT aPpArAtUs)
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Saturday, September 12th, 2009I wanted a perfect ending. Now I’ve learned, the hard way, that some poems don’t rhyme, and some stories don’t have a clear beginning, middle, and end. Life is about not knowing, having to change, taking the moment and making the best of it, without knowing what’s going to happen next. Delicious Ambiguity. - Gilda Radner
For quite sometime, this blog has been my partner in crime. The words left unsaid were lesser because of this. Some people read this so they would have a lil’ glimpse of me…what’s running in my head…the way I think…and to know the stories of what makes and breaks my heart. But in the end, we all separate.
This blog…whose name is inspired by my bestfriend (he’s the only one calling me bhaybeebhoo…)…whose content were my life…whose pictures were my stories…This is my heart…exposed for the world to read. I started this years ago, and its…it’s just full of pain.
Somehow, I wanted to keep this blog and keep on writing to it, but that’s not gonna happen. This will be my very last post. This is my life. It wasn’t mashmallow clouds and candies, but I loved it. I couldn’t imagine myself being in another story. At this moment, I feel weird. I know that this is the end of something good…but I just wanna hold on. Just for one more second so it can hurt a little more.
Goodbye to the characters in my stories. We were drawn to each other because of our similarities, but our difference set as apart and that we must learn to respect.
Thanks for reading my blog…This was my life…my former stories. But there’s a new one and I’m ready for it.
I loved you.
A day before my 25th birthday…
Tuesday, September 8th, 2009Today is the 8th of September. A day before my birthday.
Unlike the previous year, this one is kinda different. I won’t be asking God for a biggest surprise…He already gave me my biggest surprise last year and it also ended tragically as everyone knows.
| Meowth | ah.. hehe.. i see… ikaw pala yung kinukwento sa akin ni astec dati | 4:27:46 PM |
| Tin | na? | 4:27:52 PM |
| Meowth | kami magkasama ni astec sa proj sa lpk | 4:27:56 PM |
| Tin | patay tau jan | 4:27:56 PM |
| ahhhhh..ok | 4:28:04 PM | |
| Meowth | hindi naman… sabi niya meron daw shang cute (oh ha!) girl na nirefer na matangkad na nirerefer niya sa PAG group | 4:28:47 PM |
| Tin | :)) sinabi nya un | 4:29:03 PM |
| himala | 4:29:06 PM | |
| Meowth | ikaw pala yun sinasabi niya | 4:29:11 PM |
| hehehe | 4:29:15 PM | |
| Tin | bulag lang un si aste…ay mali,,,malabo mata | 4:29:32 PM |
| or masaya kasi nakakuha sila ng 10K | 4:29:41 PM | |
| haha | 4:29:42 PM | |
| Meowth | ikaw nga ata yung dumaan sa 24th nun dati tpos tinapik niya bigla tpos sabi niya “huy! nandito ka na pala” | 4:29:51 PM |
| uu masaya sha kasi nakakuha sha ng 10k | 4:30:07 PM | |
| hehe | 4:30:08 PM | |
| Tin | :)) | 4:30:49 PM |
| halos matangal balikat ko pag nanghahampas un eh | 4:33:08 PM | |
| Tin | tin(feels different na may tinatawag ako na kapangalan ko)…super thanks po…you’re my biggest surprise today :) | 6:00:57 PM |
I’m praying for something different….for God to gradually reveal His purpose for my life, to have a peaceful heart and a peaceful mind. And never to encounter infidelity again. Coz it hurts soooo much 
This will be my new start…My new year…The start of the new me…Today is the last day I’m gunna be moping about the past. Even though I will be moving on, I know that once in a while I will look back on this past, to better appreciate what I have. There will be no more crying and no more longing for people who were part of my past. There’s a reason why we didn’t make it to the future.
When sadness visits my heart
Tuesday, September 1st, 2009 After a breakup, typically, the one who was left behind can’t help but tell stories of how it was…both good and bad…happy and sad. It seemed a bit trite to tell a story in an hour time over coffee or dinner. It is too big for that. After he decided to part ways with me…Before I decided to completely let him go…I spent lots of time thinking and recalling the life i had with him. I will always remember his personality, courage, self love and how he made me feel…And how he spoke of the ending that broke my heart into pieces. This was quite an intense time of mourning and remembrance for me. Thank you God for making our paths cross. He was once a part of my life even if he didn’t make it to my future. I don’t know why. But please let him know that he was loved and honored.
Food to go
Monday, August 24th, 2009 
Life is full of interruptions and complications.
For quite sometime, I am eating out. I am avoiding eating alone here in my bay like what we used to do. I tested and I failed. So all I did was took a photo of the food I ordered. And it goes into trash after that.
Sorry po. Alam kong maraming nagugutom ngayon.
Wala lang
Sometimes…
…it doesn’t matter how much we love a person. What matters is if they know how much we love them.
…it doesn’t matter if we did our best. What matter is if we do it right.
Wala lang…