Geoffrey

Wednesday, April 23rd, 2008

Bestfriend..
Thursday, November 2nd, 2006

Posted by skyprincess at 3:25 am

 

You don’t need many friends. You just need true friends.

It was September 11, 2000. My bestfriend and I were sitting on our rooftop. He’s greeting me Happy Birthday after a petty highschool quarrel that lasted for several days. It was a fine starry evening. Weather is fine. We’re both full. Everything is perfect except for one thing, he’ll be leaving the country for good within 19 days.  I’ll just be with him 19 days and that ample time is not enough to catch up on the things that we’re still not able to do. I asked why? Why he didn’t tell me earlier? (It could have been  better if he did, I thought..). He knew 2 years ago that they will be leaving and he didn’t even tell me. Even before senior year started. We were together the whole time during summer. He could’ve told me ealier..It freaking hurts to look into his eyes and wonder, will i still be able to look into the same eyes few months or years from now? Will I still have my bestfriend who assist me going through life? For months, he’s been a friend, a brother, a clown, a phone pal, my family, my everything…and relationship is purely platonic. I just dunno how to live life without him. Basically, I wake up in the morning, prepare for school, go to school at 6 or 7 and we’re together. His classroom is just across my room. And he’d always wave hi even though our instructors are in the middle of teaching. We always stayed until 6 or 7 at school. I forgot to mention, we’re officers so we have to stay late to do extra curricular activities especially during training day which is tuesday and thursday..CAT to be specific..After school, we will just eat dinner and fulfill some family obligations…Mostly household chores (We’re both dishwashers during dinner..haha! At least we got something in common..) and then we’ll talk on the phone till 12 midnight. Alot of people usually ask, "hindi ba kayo nauubusan ng pag-uusapan?"  Well, the answer is a BIG NO. Why? Coz we’re comfortable even in silence. (Are you Geoff? You told me you are..haha!) I really can’t imagine how to live life without him. And at that point, I’m totally helpless. All I can do was breakdown and cry. So days went by, just tried to maximize our time together. A day before he and his family left for Canada, we went to a friend’s party together. I had a curfew then. I had to be home before 10. So we did came home 30 minutes late. Good thing my mom understood.  He stayed till 12:15am. I literally begged him to stay although I knew he can’t. Hearing him say "Kung kaya ko lang sana tin" is enough to ease the pain. I saw the feeling of helplessness in his eyes…And same thing in mine…Seeing him cry is one of the most heart-breaking experience I had. His shadow walking away was the last time I saw him. Haven’t seen him since then.

After he left, I promised myself I will never get close with anyone not unless they promise to stay..Haven’t had a word from him since December 25, 2000. For years, I was crying and crying. Feeling of loss won’t go away. Three years had passed. It took me more than 2 years to be able to cope up with the lost. Thanks to friendster and Meryl, after three long years we were able to reconnect. That was one of my life’s major turning point. Good thing is, I was able to realize that true friendship isn’t limited by distance, time or space. We talked as if we just saw each other yesterday..But of course there’s alot of catching up and explanations to do. The painful part is the fact that I can’t be with him. Have you ever felt ecstatic and sad  at the same time? That’s exactly how I felt while looking at him through the webcam. It’s one of the happiest yet very sad experience. We were spending alot of money just for phone calls. At least five grand in a month for me, and $200 weekly for him…It’s a big amount of money but that doesn’t matter..The money I spent are none compared to lessons I got from that frienship and experience.

We seldom talk now. We’re both living separate lives. Alot has changed though. But that’s fine. The only bad thing that this experience left me is I still don’t get close with anyone not unless he/she promised to stay. What do I mean by STAY? We don’t actually have to be in the same geographical position. I can’t tie a person with me for a long time. It just enough that he/she keep in touch coz when I say your my friend, I really mean it. I would do anything and everything I can just to keep you.

"Im still you clown. The only difference is that my service to you is free." - my bestfriend